Safdarali0044IG

I permanently belongs to Mohallah Angan Cham village Lilownai Tehsil Alpurai district Shangla province Khyber Pakhtunkhwa and I reside in Bannu cantonment Banglow no 43 upper portion defense officer colony. As I have a job in water and Sanitation services company Bannu for the last 4 years so I am in Bannu so for the last 4 years. I try to become a good Muslim but I consider myself to be the bad from amongst all muslims. However- I believe Allah will forgive me for my sins. As stated I already have a wife and 4 kids and I want to marry again. It is not like that I am having a problem with current wife. My wife is with me in marriage and she will be the chief guest of the marriage. I love my current wife and I will love my 2nd wife to be because I love wives and I do not love girl friends. I am here for making a Halaal nikah as I feel the need especially in the morning time and my current wife after the last C Section the doctor says me to stop other wise she will die. My friends- my relatives- my subordinates and my neighbors describe me as a good man and a friend indeed as I stand with them in need. My wife and my kids loves me. People from outside the family looks to me as head of the family and someone to talk with and decide things as my beautiful and ba akhlaaq and good mannered father has died on November 1- 2010 and I always sees my father in my dream when November comes nearby. This October 2024 I see my father sitting at Hujra and taking meals with those in the way of Allah and I was passing by the Hujra having my arms up for abulition for asar prayers. And it was a dream and as said by the beautiful Prophet Muhammad swallalaho alaihe wasalam that whosover tell a lie in dream commits a -big- sin. I always tell the truth Alhamdulellah and I try my level best to fulfill my promises unless and untill the circumstances are beyond my control because I am a human being and I am nothing. One day a girl who seem to be religious as she was having a Niqab asks me -Tum kia cheez ho-- means who are you. She was talking with Takkabur with me so I replied I am nothing. And now I love my reply and my summaries introducuom and 1 sentence introduction "I AM NOTHING" and now I love this statement. And this is also true. I was created by Allah and my body and my belongings and wealth and health etc are all granted by Allah and I have the command of Allah -Rooh- in my body that is making me precious. Without Rooh no one is anything but a dead body required to be burried soon. And in Urdu I will say " Me koi itni bari Toop chees nahi ho- chota sa insan ho aor buhut Bara gunehgaar ho Allah mujh pr reham Karam lutf inayat mehrabani ataa rahmate barkate anwaraat inamaat nawazishaat Hidayat ki Barish farmay Ameen ya Rabb. "